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Patrick's Bed After He Read Me Polish Poetry

Sat, 23 Jan 2010 19:36 +0000

In homage to one of my favorite artists Felix Gonzalez-Torres

I keep coming back to this photograph. This is more what I learned about patrick then a second image of him. That I couldn't capture how he had changed for me. His online persona was very honest and very him. Though he is very attractive and I really wanted to capture that in the second photograph too, when I talked about this blind photo date what I ended up talking about was that we talked for almost 4 hours sitting on his bed. We talked about the state of the world, ideas on the self, American politics, music, art, where we grew up (which happend to be the same weird nj town, west milford), and what we wanted to accomplish with our lives. This picture, devoid of his image I kinda felt got him more than any of the pics I shot at the end.

Pete after our date

Fri, 22 Jan 2010 19:56 +0000

We grabbed some pizza at Roberta's in Brooklyn and a drink at Kings County. After we headed back to his apt to shoot the second pic. All of his roommates were home. One of the boys (I forget his name) had his boyfriend over and asked us if we were making porn. Pete said not yet and his roommate responded with "well good luck." It's so funny how people react to this project. I never set out to make any porn but I think it's hard for people to not partially expect that in this day and age. I shot pete with his prayer beads on. They were shaped like small skulls to remind him of his mortality... he cuddled a raccoon stuffed animal as we listened to wicked and the GLEE mix he had made. He is full of contradictions.

Pete is always number 2

Thu, 21 Jan 2010 19:45 +0000

I told Pete that I was really interested in how he came off very jockish to me through his profile.. so he broke out all his old jersies. He told me that he was always number 2. Somebody had already claimed number one. He wanted a consistent number so he chose two. Pete was the second person I photographed for this project. When we realized this we laughed for a while.

burg2239

Wed, 20 Jan 2010 20:27 +0000

This is the way I imagined him before I met him...
jockish drinking a beer on the couch.. a bit smarmy.. boy was I wrong.
We talked about how I imagined him originally. He said it was his fault. He had put that out in the world... but then I just took it at face value. I mean, it was manhunt and all. How much do you want people to know about who you are on a sex-now "dating" site. it's funny what we project out in the world. His profile did not use words such as "normal" or "str8 acting" guy but that is what he projected in his profile to me. It wasn't even what he claimed he wanted to project. Funny to stand back and look at how others see us.. and how our choice shape that. Frequently we make the wrong choices for what our goals are.

His manhunt profile

Tue, 19 Jan 2010 07:45 +0000

Funny night...
We had dinner and then went to the bar where we talked about god for quite a while. While the word god was not a turn off, his refusal to allow me to reject that word was. In my understanding of a greater power god didn't exist therefore I was an atheist. Later he spoke of Penn from Penn and Teller. Penn said that he was an atheist because he refused to believe that all the good humans do was not their own. If a higher being was responsible for the good things in the world then humans didn't have any agency. I guess I think my agency is in the fact that I can say I don't believe in god.
Even when everything my date believes in I do too. I know there is something bigger than me but I don't believe that that equals god. Maybe I have negative attachments to that word because of american politics and the religious right. I just can't see beyond the idea that g-o-d = all knowing deity in charge of mankind.

Later he played Legally Blonde the Musical for me and sang the hits of his GLEE mix.. I couldn't help but feel really seriously silly.
when i got home i looked at his manhunt profile and he was online.. I couldn't help but think what a funny night I had had.. reading it back.. there was noting in his profile anymore that said who he was
except about "stacy's mom" he did have a silly cheesy streak

Patrykbot

Mon, 18 Jan 2010 21:28 +0000

We liked this one.....

the same inside

walking to your place for a love feast
I saw at a street corner
an old beggar woman.
I took her hand
kissed her delicate cheek,
we talked, she was
the same inside as I am,
from the same kind,
I sensed this instantly
as a dog knows by its scent
another dog.
I gave her money,
I could not part from her.
After all, one needs
someone who is close.
And then I no longer knew
why I was walking to your place.
- Anna Swirszczynska
check out patrick's photo blog at www.patrykbot.com

Patrykbot

Sun, 17 Jan 2010 07:10 +0000

Ok so I am really excited to start my newest photo project tentatively titled "Blind Photo Date" today was my first shoot. And I had the best time. Thanks Patryk.. We talked for nearly 4 hours and he read me polish poetry. What an amazing afternoon.

The Beginning..

Wed, 13 Jan 2010 20:55 +0000